Realization from my Lenten Meditations: I am a Dismal Failure; I need God to Survive Here & Eternally!!!

Realization from my Lenten Meditations: I am a Dismal Failure; I need God to Survive Here & Eternally!!!

Lenten Daily Meditations

Renew within me a Right Spirit.”—Psalm 51:12

Celebrating the “Spiritual Season!”

Forty-Six (47) Days from Ash Wednesday to Easter… Realize Lent is over on Palm Sunday; it is now Holy Week)…

Forty Nights between Ash Wednesday and Palm Sunday…

Only 14 of 40… is my Lenten Preparation a dismal failure?

Then Fifty (50) Days to Pentecost…


Seven Penitential Psalms: 6, 32, 38, 51, 102, 130, 143

Matthew 4:1-11; Psalm 51; Psalm 6, 32, 38, 102, 130, 143


Matthew 4:1-11

“Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the desert to be tempted by the devil. 2 He fasted for forty days and forty nights, and afterwards he was hungry. 3 The tempter approached and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, command that these stones become loaves of bread.” 4 He said in reply, “It is written:

One does not live by bread alone,

but by every word that comes forth from the mouth of God.’”

5 Then the devil took him to the holy city, and made him stand on the parapet of the temple, 6 and said to him, “If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down. For it is written:

He will command his angels concerning you’

and ‘with their hands they will support you,

lest you dash your foot against a stone.’”

7 Jesus answered him, “Again it is written, ‘You shall not put the Lord, your God, to the test.’” 8 Then the devil took him up to a very high mountain, and showed him all the kingdoms of the world in their magnificence, 9 and he said to him, “All these I shall give to you, if you will prostrate yourself and worship me.” 10 At this, Jesus said to him, “Get away, Satan! It is written:

The Lord, your God, shall you worship

and him alone shall you serve.’”

11 Then the devil left him and, behold, angels came and ministered to him.”—Matthew 4:1-11


Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, God, in accord with your merciful love;

in your abundant compassion blot out my transgressions.

4 Thoroughly wash away my guilt;

and from my sin cleanse me.

5 For I know my transgressions;

my sin is always before me.

6 Against you, you alone have I sinned;

I have done what is evil in your eyes

So that you are just in your word,

and without reproach in your judgment.

7 Behold, I was born in guilt,

in sin my mother conceived me.

8 Behold, you desire true sincerity;

and secretly you teach me wisdom.

9 Cleanse me with hyssop, that I may be pure;

wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

10 You will let me hear gladness and joy;

the bones you have crushed will rejoice.

11 Turn away your face from my sins;

blot out all my iniquities.

12 A clean heart create for me, God;

renew within me a steadfast spirit.

13 Do not drive me from before your face,

nor take from me your Holy Spirit.

14 Restore to me the gladness of your Salvation;

uphold me with a willing Spirit.

15 I will teach the wicked your ways,

that sinners may return to you.

16 Rescue me from violent bloodshed, God, my saving God,

and my tongue will sing joyfully of your justice.

17 Lord, you will open my lips;

and my mouth will proclaim your praise.

18 For you do not desire sacrifice or I would give it;

a burnt offering you would not accept.

19 My sacrifice, O God, is a contrite spirit;

a contrite, humbled heart, O God, you will not scorn.

20 Treat Zion kindly according to your good will;

build up the walls of Jerusalem.

21 Then you will desire the sacrifices of the just,

burnt offering and whole offerings;

then they will offer up young bulls on your altar.”—Psalm 51


Psalm 6

Do not reprove me in your anger, Lord,

nor punish me in your wrath.

3 Have pity on me, Lord, for I am weak;

heal me, Lord, for my bones are shuddering.

4 My soul too is shuddering greatly—

and you, Lord, how long…?

5 Turn back, Lord, rescue my soul;

save me because of your mercy.

6 For in death there is no remembrance of you.

Who praises you in Sheol?

7 I am wearied with sighing;

all night long I drench my bed with tears;

I soak my couch with weeping.

8 My eyes are dimmed with sorrow,

worn out because of all my foes.

9 Away from me, all who do evil!

The Lord has heard the sound of my weeping.

10 The Lord has heard my plea;

the Lord will receive my prayer.

11 My foes will all be disgraced and will shudder greatly;

they will turn back in sudden disgrace.”—Psalm 6


Psalm 32

“Blessed is the one whose fault is removed,

whose sin is forgiven.

2 Blessed is the man to whom the Lord imputes no guilt,

in whose spirit is no deceit.

3 Because I kept silent, my bones wasted away;

I groaned all day long.

4 For day and night your hand was heavy upon me;

my strength withered as in dry summer heat.

5 Then I declared my sin to you;

my guilt I did not hide.

I said, “I confess my transgression to the Lord,”

and you took away the guilt of my sin.

6 Therefore every loyal person should pray to you

in time of distress.

Though flood waters threaten,

they will never reach him.

7 You are my shelter; you guard me from distress;

with joyful shouts of deliverance you surround me.

8 I will instruct you and show you the way you should walk,

give you counsel with my eye upon you.

Do not be like a horse or mule, without understanding; with bit and bridle their Temper is curbed, else they will not come to You.”—Psalm 32:9

10 Many are the sorrows of the wicked one,

but mercy surrounds the one who trusts in the Lord.

11 Be glad in the Lord and rejoice, you righteous;

exult, all you upright of heart.”—Psalm 32


Psalm 38

1 A psalm of David. For remembrance.

2 Lord, do not punish me in your anger;

in your wrath do not chastise me!

3 Your arrows have sunk deep in me;

your hand has come down upon me.

4 There is no wholesomeness in my flesh because of your anger;

there is no health in my bones because of my sin.

5 My iniquities overwhelm me,

a burden too heavy for me.

6 Foul and festering are my sores

because of my folly.

7 I am stooped and deeply bowed;

every day I go about mourning.

8 My loins burn with fever;

there is no wholesomeness in my flesh.

9 I am numb and utterly crushed;

I wail with anguish of heart.

10 My Lord, my deepest yearning is before you;

my groaning is not hidden from you.

11 My heart shudders, my strength forsakes me;

the very light of my eyes has failed.

12 Friends and companions shun my disease;

my neighbors stand far off.

13 Those who seek my life lay snares for me;

they seek my misfortune, they speak of ruin;

they plot treachery every day.

“But I am like the deaf, hearing nothing; like the mute, I do not open my mouth; I am even like someone who does not hear, who has no answer ready. Lord, it is for You that I wait; O Lord, my God, You respond.”—Psalm 38:14-16

17 For I have said that they would gloat over me,

exult over me if I stumble.

18 I am very near to falling;

my wounds are with me always.

19 I acknowledge my guilt

and grieve over my sin.

20 My enemies live and grow strong,

those who hate me grow numerous fraudulently,

21 Repaying me evil for good,

accusing me for pursuing good.

22 Do not forsake me, O Lord;

my God, be not far from me!

23 Come quickly to help me,

my Lord and my salvation!—Psalm 38


Psalm 102

1 The prayer of one afflicted and wasting away whose anguish is poured out before the Lord.

2 Lord, hear my prayer;

let my cry come to you.

3 Do not hide your face from me

in the day of my distress.

Turn your ear to me;

when I call, answer me quickly.

4 For my days vanish like smoke;

my bones burn away as in a furnace.

5 My heart is withered, dried up like grass,

too wasted to eat my food.

6 From my loud groaning

I become just skin and bones.

7 I am like a desert owl,

like an owl among the ruins.

8 I lie awake and moan,

like a lone sparrow on the roof.

9 All day long my enemies taunt me;

in their rage, they make my name a curse.

10 I eat ashes like bread,

mingle my drink with tears.

11 Because of your furious wrath,

you lifted me up just to cast me down.

12 My days are like a lengthening shadow;

I wither like the grass.

13 But you, Lord, are enthroned forever;

your renown is for all generations.

14 You will again show mercy to Zion;

now is the time for pity;

the appointed time has come.

15 Its stones are dear to your servants;

its dust moves them to pity.

16 The nations shall fear your name, Lord,

all the kings of the earth, your glory,

17 Once the Lord has rebuilt Zion

and appeared in glory,

18 Heeding the plea of the lowly,

not scorning their prayer.

19 Let this be written for the next generation,

for a people not yet born,

that they may praise the Lord:

20 “The Lord looked down from the holy heights,

viewed the earth from heaven,

21 To attend to the groaning of the prisoners,

to release those doomed to die.”

22 Then the Lord’s name will be declared on Zion,

his praise in Jerusalem,

23 When peoples and kingdoms gather

to serve the Lord.

24 He has shattered my strength in mid-course,

has cut short my days.

25 I plead, O my God,

do not take me in the midst of my days.

Your years last through all generations.

26 Of old you laid the earth’s foundations;

the heavens are the work of your hands.

27 They perish, but you remain;

they all wear out like a garment;

Like clothing you change them and they are changed,

28 but you are the same, your years have no end.

29 May the children of your servants live on;

may their descendants live in your presence.—Psalm 102


Psalm 130

1 A song of ascents.

Out of the depths I call to You, Lord; Lord, hear my cry! May Your Ears be attentive to my cry for Mercy. If You, Lord, keep account of sins, Lord, who can stand? But with You is Forgiveness and so You are revered.”—Psalm 130: 2-4

5 I wait for the Lord,

my soul waits

and I hope for his word.

6 My soul looks for the Lord

more than sentinels for daybreak.

More than sentinels for daybreak,

7 let Israel hope in the Lord,

For with the Lord is mercy,

with him is plenteous redemption,

8 And he will redeem Israel

from all its sins.—Psalm 130


Psalm 143

1 A psalm of David.

Lord, hear my Prayer; in your Faithfulness listen to my pleading; answer me in Your Righteousness. Do not enter into Judgment with Your Servant; before you no one can be just.

—Psalm 143:1-2

3 The enemy has pursued my soul;

he has crushed my life to the ground.

He has made me dwell in darkness

like those long dead.

4 My spirit is faint within me;

my heart despairs.

5 I remember the days of old;

I ponder all your deeds;

the works of your hands I recall.

I stretch out my hands toward You.”—Psalm 143:6

my soul to you like a parched land.

Hasten to answer me, Lord; for my Spirit fails me. Do not hide Your Face from me, lest I become like those descending to the pit. In the morning let me hear of Your Mercy, for in You I trust. Show me the path I should walk, for I entrust my life to You.”—Psalm 143:7-8

9 Rescue me, Lord, from my foes,

for I seek refuge in you.

Teach me to do Your Will, for You are my God. May Your Kind Spirit guide me… for Your Name’s Sake, Lord, give me life; in Your Righteousness lead my Soul out of distress… in your Mercy… for I am Your Servant.”—Psalm 143:10-12

on ground that is level.

11 For your name’s sake, Lord, give me life;

in your righteousness lead my soul out of distress.

12 In your mercy put an end to my foes;

all those who are oppressing my soul,

for I am your servant.—Psalm 143


Lent is over and for the very first time I realized that I am a dismal failure and need God to survive here and eternally… went 14 for 40 on my “Lenten Sacrifice” of eating 2,000 calories per day… hopefully God likes baseball and my 0.350 batting average… honestly I tried my best and most slips were in the 2,ooonds… and I did lose a few of those pandemic pounds… and I was totally honest with myself and God and the realization came to me that I do not need to be perfect in God’s Eyes… He does love me and knows I realized and tried my best to be out there in the desert with Jesus these last 40 days… I know I need God in my life, first of firsts, to survive in this world and beyond for all of Eternity! May God Bless all of us as we journey through the ups and downs of Holy Week… may our Hope be transformed into Joy and Eternal Life right here on Earth! Knowing God is present in all faiths and all religions I wish my Jewish friends a beautiful Passover! We all have a common heritage and our diversity is truly our strength so let’s make it so! “Renew within me a Right Spirit.”—Psalm 51:12 PS Link includes my Lenten Meditations including Matthew 4:1-11 and the Seven Penitential Psalms…

(Andy Reistetter, Facebook Post 3-29-21 with one link)

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